I've SLACKED

I've majorly slacked on my blog! Let's refresh with Soosie's current events:

I'm teaching 2 classes and soon to pick up 3 more next week! And get this; 4 out of 5 of them are BALLET...Yes, BALLET. I LOVE Ballet and know how to instruct it but I'm no Primaballerina Soosie. Great thing I have a wonderful mentor!

I'm also on a few dance studios sub lists as well. Teaching dance is second nature to me. What can I say? And the thing is, I'm always trying to do what I can to improve and gain all of the knowledge I can to be the VERY BEST.

I was in s deep sink of depression last week and was ready to surrender. Change can be hard but ya know, it's a GOOD THING. We need to stop being afraid of change. We always want things easy, don't we?

I've been working out 3-5 times a week at my new gym. I go to Bally's. I love it. Just like dance, working out is second nature to me. I haven't lost any weight yet because I've ben stuffing my face with deeelicious food.

Boricua and I donate Plasma 2 times a week. My veins were infiltrated on both arms today and I have amazing bruises just in time for Halloween!

We're still at my mom's. Boricua's yet to find a better job. Until then, we'll make due.

WISE HAS GAINED WEIGHT!!! HOORAY!!!

I found my camera cable!! Now I can post pictures!!!!

My new quote: 'HOPE is synonymous to OPTIMISM and FEAR is synonymous to TERROR. What will you choose?'
Thanks for everyones love and support during this BIG family change!!!!

Our new Ward

OKAY, first things first! THe good things: BOYD K PACKER is in our Ward. We missed his meeting takeover last Sunday and he personally spoke the whole church meeting.
I found a mother with two small boys my boys ages! We will have playdates!!

Other than that....I am soooo totally ready to move back! I think I heard crickets in Sunday School...where was the opinions and thoughts. I want a Bro Summers or Bro Call. The lesson was always interesting and peoples inputs were even better. I miss familiar faces and all of the KIDS!!! This ward has a small amount of kids. IT's older folks, as the area I'm in is very afluent. So, there's not a lot of young families. They're all very nice and it's a nice ward...but...it's not like the one in my old neck of the woods.

I'll be honest, I'm terribly homesick. I'd pack up and come back rightnow if I had it my way. I miss everything about my old home. Even the summer roaches...haha!!

Saturday is a special day

It's supposed to be a day 'to get ready for Suuunday'! I've been dawdling around all day, took a long afternoon nap, haven't showered and let my kids go bananas. It's really cold today, I'm bored and have no ambition to do anything! I guess I better go iron the kids Sunday clothes BUT first need to find out what time our new Ward starts at. I'm so ready to get back to church. I felt like I haven't been there forever! Lawd save me!
Okay, well, do you think I should compramise my time being a mom and go back to work full time? Ugh...that's sounds so awful!! I may have to get a part time job...which means I will have to find childcare no matter what. Oh boy... MAybe Boricua should just get another pt job and I'll stay home! How does that sound?
Well, I'll most likely blog about my new ward next week. Wish us luck!

Pardon my blog overload...

I have blogged several different postings at once!!!!
I was on a whirlwind there for a second..or the past two days!!

Today I've been homesick...in my hometown. Go figure. Then I open up the new Ensign and read about the Washington DC Converts stories and that made me even more homesick.
Boricua will start work tomorrow and I will be teaching officially next Thursday. Until something better comes Boricua's way, we will be staying at my mom's for awhile. We wont rent and use that money to save. I'm sure we'll be just fine! I just have a hard time starting all over again. Plus we've been sick from the weather change. Wise developed a nasty viral rash all over his legs, spread up his back and a little on is arms. They were little bumps all over his skin. It's clearing up and still around his knee caps. He's had the whole diahrea, runny nose and low grade fever thing too. As for me, I developed a Sinus Infection and my Sinuses became so dry, I was getting bloody noses....the first bloody noses I've ever had in my life!! Craziness! Call me bananas but I've been taking Colloidal Silver( yah, the stuff if you injest too much, your skin turns blue!). It's supposed to be 'Nature's Antibiotic'. It actually has really helped! I'm no longer a skeptic!
I have so many new photos to post but my camera's usp hookup is somewhere in boxes...So until then, enjoy my amazing flood of thoughts!!

This must resonate within me

AS I take this huge move and start all over and my missing my old home and routine...

Sometimes a Loss Can Be a Gain
When we lose anything that we cherish, the sense of emptiness we are left behind with can be overwhelming. A space that was filled, whether in our lives or our hearts, is now a void, and the feelings of pain, loss, and separation can sometimes be difficult to bear. While it is always important to honor what we’ve lost, sometimes a loss can also represent a chance for a new beginning. When we are ready, the void left by a relationship, a job, or a dream can then be viewed as open space that can be filled with something new: new experiences, new knowledge, new job opportunities, new dreams, new people, and new ways to grow.~the Daily OM

Let me Clarify myself...

I appreciate the comments that have buzzed my way and the interest of reading my blogs! Politics are a touchy subject, aren't they? I realized you CANNOT get too wrapped up into it, as it consumes all of your mental energy and as you see on TV or interenet, it stirs up alot of anger. Which is totally not right and I refuse to get angry or wrapped up in one's campaign, to try to prove someone elses beliefs are wrong. I don't beleive in infringing beliefs upon others. I do however believe in being a good example and having morals. I don't belong to any Political group. I don't believe in it and what I worship has absolutely nothing to do with Politics. I believe in having Balance in all things. Not too much of this and not too much of that. It's all about moderation...Just like my diet! haha. Moderation and Balance seems to be disentegrating and ununderstandable. Common Sense in no longer common.

When I get too wrapped up in Politics and heresay, it effects my Spiritual Growth and it becomes very distracting. I'm bombarded with people sending and posting ridiculous things about Barrack Obama and ridiculous things about John McCain. This is the ugliest and dirtiest Presidental Race. NONE of these men set a good example. YOu've got McCain, a very angry man, condesending, wants to go to war with everyone, full of Pride, playboy, Adulterer and party boy. Then Barrack, who has associated with all of these questionable people, supports Gay marriage and other things. I'm still not seeing how he is a Socialist though... I've only seen some of McCain's behavior and ideas seem forceful. I too feel it is a right to have Health Insurance and it must be more accessible for everyone to have. I've been uninsured for years because I can't afford it and we make too much money to get government help. I've owed thousands of dollars in medical bills. As of RIGHT NOW, I have an infection and trying to fight it off naturally; so I don't have to go to the ER and get more medical bills. This year, I've been sick every month and broke my foot and ended up in the ER 3 times(luckily, my broken foot was covered by my employer...BARELY!!!). Guess who's stuck with the bills? It's very frustrating. I can't even go to well care check ups and get my teeth cleaned every 6 months because I can't afford it. And it's not just me who's dealing with this. Millions of Americans are. I grew up in a home, where my mom was self employed and my dad was disabled due to a serious car accident. My family couldn't afford health insurance for me and my siblings and I saw how hard it was for my parents to try to pay for it. We can't afford Boricua's Premiums through his work. ON top of premiums, a good amount goes out of our own pockets. I'm mind boggled by it all. Not everyone lives a financially comfortable life and ALOT struggle, living paycheck to paycheck. Even fellow faithful tithe payers. But don't get me wrong, Obama's idea on giving Health Care to ALL by the Gov't, is nearly impossible. It's overambitious. I feel it MUST be more affordable for everyone!
So, NO, of course I don't believe in Socialism; in other words, Communism. Of course I DON'T condone Same Sex Marriage, as it is unnatural and brings unbalance. OF course I don't believe anyone should go get an abortion at any given time. Leave that up for the States to decide. What we have in set now in our Government, is obvisouly NOT working. There needs to be change but our Government will always be flawed. This Constitution will eventually hang by a thread. I don't know who will bring us this mighty change. I don't believe in individuals having the freedom to do whatever they want. That bring chaos and destruction. Of course there needs to be order but noone should be forced to think and believe in a certain way. Noone should be critisized for thinking differently. Both sides of the Parties can bring forth very very good arguements. My family is very liberal and I have friends that are as well; so I hear both sides. I stand in the middle with it all. Like I said, not too much there and not to much here. Enforce some things yet let there be freedom and our individual rights but of course, suffer for our own consequences. We all need to learn to tolerate and love one another, no matter what. Isn't that what faithful Christians are taught? Not only Christians but nearly all religions.

Sometimes I feel, and I hope that I'm wrong, that some people feel that in order to be a good faithful Member of the LDS Church, you must be a Repulican and think alike. That frightens me and leaves a sour taste in my mouth. I have such a firm testimony of my Savior and his teachings. I strive to do what is right day in and day out. I am eager to gain knowledge and better understand these marvelous tools we've been so blessed with. But my situation and life track is a little different. My family are no longer members of the church. They have different life views and beliefs now, yet they are extremely intelligent and wonderful people. My husband isn't a returned missionary and he is the only Member of the LDS church in his family. He's experienced a completely different view on life and experienced so much more. I was pregnant when I married him. I'm not a graduate from BYU. I have Gay friends and I love them very much. My best friend is Jewish and she is an amazing woman. My other best friend is Agnostic and as sweet as can be. They don't share the same beliefs as me and it's what makes things more interesting. Because we learn new things from one another and gain new respects for things. I've been able to share my beliefs with them and that's a blessing! Ya know, I'm loud, I like loud music, I'm open to learning different things and sometimes I can get a little crude. But I have no doubt, that I am a virtuous woman, who is held on high and my Lord knows that I am doing the very best I can be every living day of my life. I hold my standards sacred.
And if anyone questions my Faith because I'm not a Repulican, than they have some thinking of their own they need to sort out. Like I said, I belong to NO Political Party.

Wish me luck!

Tomorrow I have a job interview to be a Kindergarten Assistant for a Private school! It is at the Greek Orthodox Church located minutes away from where I live. It's only 3 hours a day, which is perfect for my schedule. My main focus is being a mom, so I won't work full time. I just need to get some work going, so I can help my family out a little bit rightnow.
I also have a dance teaching offer 2 hours every Thursday and will be covering for my friend's classes next Thursday! The other dance studio has me at the top of their subsitute teaching list. We're going on week two with making no money. It's kind of unnerving!
ON the other hand, Boricua's first job offer didn't offer him enough money. However, if his other job offers aren't competitive, he will go ahead with the original job offer for the time being. He is getting discouraged and I must be the supportive wife. He is extremely bored and we've managed to find alot of time to study! Which is not bad. But it will be once we have no more money! And what about us buying a home? I know things will work out.
Some people think we're big risk takers for making such a huge change during an Economic crisis. The World keeps going and we shouldn't stop doing what we feel is right.
Wish me luck with this job!!

BIGOTRY

I see it too much in this Nation and in this WORLD...


1. stubborn and complete intolerance of any creed, belief, or opinion that differs from one's own.
2. the actions, beliefs, prejudices, etc., of a bigot

—Synonyms 1. narrow-mindedness, bias, discrimination.

This keeps you from making a logical decision...think about it.

Study both sides before you(as in the 3rd person) critisize.
We are a World of Variety. In everything, there is opposition. We have the FREEDOM to choose and worship how, where or what we may. The consequences lie in our OWN transgressions.

I think for myself & believe in Balance

My thought for the day:
Ignorant:
1. lacking in knowledge or training; unlearned: an ignorant man.
2. lacking knowledge or information as to a particular subject or fact: ignorant of quantum physics.
3. uninformed; unaware.



I'm not ignorant. I think for myself and base my thoughts and opinions on what I study, hear and observe. That's the great thing of being Human; we all think differently! So, calling me ignorant because I don't think alike, is ignorant. Which meaning, lack of knowing and understanding what ignorance is.

Free Agency

By: Delbert L. Stapley, “Using Our Free Agency,” Ensign, May 1975, 21

For it must needs be, that there is an opposition in all things. If not so … righteousness could not be brought to pass, neither wickedness, neither holiness nor misery, neither good nor bad.” (2 Ne. 2:11.)

As sons and daughters of our Heavenly Father, we have this gift of free agency to use in our mortal lives. We must be tried, tested, and proved to see if we will choose the right and do all things whatsoever the Lord our God shall command us. As spirit children of God, we have built-in powers of conscience sufficient to develop our free agency in right choices and to acquire qualities of goodness, humility, and integrity of purpose.


A person’s freedom should never be suppressed by men, by Satan, nor by our Lord. Men should never be in bondage one to another. While Satan would like us under his control, God does not control the actions of men. He has given us our agency to combat the trials, temptations, and evils of every kind. However, he gives certain principles that, if followed, will lead us back to his presence. God’s kingdom is founded upon perfect liberty. Every man, woman, and child has the right to worship God according to the dictates of his own conscience. Each person alone is responsible to his creator for his individual acts.

God gave us the everlasting gospel, the principles of life and salvation, and has left it up to each of us to choose or reject, with the understanding that we become responsible to him for the results of our acts. The Lord does not force anyone to embrace the gospel, and he will not force them to live it if they have embraced it. “They act for themselves, and act from choice.” (Discourses of Brigham Young, p. 57.)

Satan exerts his greatest power when God has a work to do among his children on earth. Every dispensation of the gospel since the beginning of time has come to a close, not because God has failed, but because man has failed God by the improper use of his free agency.

THIS is what influnces my thoughts. Not politicians.

I'd love to hear why....

Alot of you support McCain/Palin or Obama/Biden.

I know alot of Members of the Church support McCain/Palin just because of their values and standards...but is that the only reason why you think they'd do a good job? It's a little confusing to me... I have the same values as fellow members of the LDS church but I don't think McCain/Palin are good examples and I think we'd be in a lot of trouble if they were to take over the Whitehouse. McCain is testy and a timebomb ready to explode. Palin is extremely under experienced and quite ignorant. I don't think it's very good to compare yourself to a DOG! Let alone a Pitbull, who's vicious and known to turn on their owners at any given time. She did however hold her own on the VP Debate..but why is she geting more publicity then McCain? Do you think McCain knew this would happen and therefore it'd help his campaign for the extra exposure? I don't like how he's always geeting on his soapbox about being a Prisoner of War. We all know it now. Move on. I too get uncomfortable knowing he's sang songs like, " Bomb bomb bomb, bomb bomb Iran."
I was scared when he held up a Sharpie and said he'd veto everything that came his way. Where's the balance? We need equalibrium. Not too much right or too much left. BALANCE. Do either candidates demonstrate balance? Um, not really. Can't we get a President who'll put Politics aside and make realistic and bi-partisen decisions? Do I respect McCain and Palin's values? OF COURSE! I feel family values are number ONE and don't supprt Gay Marriage for the sanctity of it being between a man and a woman..which gives the family BALANCE. BUT, do I believe a president and his/her personal beliefs should force a Nation of variety to follow what they follow? Isn't that taking away our Free Agency? And don't you think these Evangelical Christians a bit Extreme? What about Balance? I think Mitt Romney came the closest to this and he unfortuneatly didn't make it. (Some may beg to differ but you have to remember he governed a liberal State and his standpoint on, for example, Abortion, he felt was for the States to decide.) Do you think Domestic oil drilling will help our energy crisis? It will take along time to build pipes in Alaska first and that will only help minisually for a brief period of time. What about the future? What will help us for the Future? Do I think McCain is a good man, sure! And Sarah Palin? Yes! But to run this Country? Noway.
I am very unsure who to vote for in a few weeks...what about you?

We made it!

Sure, it's been a week since being an official Utah resident but I still need to let you know that, WE MADE IT SAFELY! It was a very long drive and by day 3, we were so grumpy and done with driving!

We left Frederick a little before 5 am. Boricua and I got about 3 hours of sleep that morning, so we were so utterly exhausted. The packing was alot of work, as always is. Our van was stuffed to the brim! We did it National Lampoon's style! Anyway, our first day of driving was the longest! We drove for 15 hours! Yes, with two small kids too! We finally arrived in Peru, Illinois around 8 pm. Our hotel was right next to a corn field...surprise surprise. We were literally ATTACKED by mosquitos! I've never seen so many hungry parasites come to feast, so FAST in my life! It was crazy! We had to run to our car and run to the door, so we wouldn't get bitten as much. We doused ourselves with OFF spray. My gosh, it was quite a trip! I first noticed how much nicer the people were in the MidWest than out East. But the scenery is boring and ugly and I'd nevr want to live there.
On day 2, we left around 8 am. This trip went smoothly and it was boring. We ended up in North Platte, Nebraska around 7 pm. Boricua and I felt we were in a daze. I thought I was dreaming. We ate some good Mexican food and called it a night.
Day 3, our last trek!! Hooray! This the the BORINGEST trek of ALL! Driving through Nebraska and Wyoming is so so so boring. We did stop in the litle town where the University of Wyoming is. They were nice folks but I'd never want to live there. I am more of a Metropolitan girl. RIGHT when we hit the Utah border, our camera died! What are the odds? I was the driver at that time. As I was driving through the canyon, I became sad and a mix of emotions came up. I was second guessing my decision to do this...becuase it finally hit me..I'm living here AGAIN! Before that I kept on thinking we were taking a vacation and going back to MD. BUT~ we are living here!! My gosh! Am I ready to live here again? As soon as the Canyon opened and I looked out into the Valley, I was home and felt better.

Now, I've been here a week and I have felt a blanket of sadness today. I miss my home I created, my friends, my routine, MATER, and my Ward Family. I thought about them all day during conference and wished I could share my thoughts with them the following Sunday. OUr routines are out of sync and the boys are paying for it. I've had the worst allergies since being here and the dry air is killing my sinuses. Oh, how I wished I was still in my little apartment downtown, where we walked through the city and enjoyed our surroundings. I missed IN The Streets. My students miss me and I miss them. I'm just so homesick, even though I'm techniquely home. I'm with my family again, which is great but I miss the family I made out there. I miss my stepson, Mater and his energy. I miss everything about him. I wish he was here with us. Honestly, I'd move back in a heartbeat rightnow. I don't think I'm ready mentally to live here yet...but we'll see. It's only been a week and we're not livng on our own yet! Boricua should start work this week and hopefully all will go well! But like it was repeated over and over in General Conference today, rejoice in your trials and Change is A-okay!!